everybody but me

take it.
take it with tea.
maybe some drama and flair.
just take it.

a constant failure.
a never ending fear.
a dream forgotten, never wanted.
someone else.

she gave up.
why cant i?
the water is so inviting.
right?

no purpose driven.
grasping at straws
and tiny leaves
laughing fools.

small canvas
large brush.
no paint
no muse.

i broke my heart
by crying too much.
wishing the water would take me.
instead i stay.

wishing for a home
that doesn't exist.
a dream
that so easily evaporates.

just take it.
its so small
it could help.
but it doesn't.

higher we go.
worry about it later.
il trip eventually.
over a rock or my own faults.