A question asked, but was it answered?

Im pretty sure it is the waiting that makes me this way. I, Audrey Tremblay, asked out a boy in one of the most awkward ways imaginable. Its understandable I'm sure, coming from me that it was odd and most embarrassing but I am not sure what to think. Theses excited giddy feelings turn into this feeling of girlish anxiety. Is he really going to go out with me on this strange coffee date. He must have been shocked to his toes by my approach. We didn't even talk that much before but for some strange reason he really intrigues me.... which of course my mouth told him before my brain could stop it. He has a good head on his shoulders, hes funny and hes actually kinda cute. When that combination is wrapped in a 6'4 blond built body, I guess there is nothing else I could have done but ask him out. However, I am not the usual asking out girl. Usually I wait until it becomes the awkard friend stage and then we get stuck in the "are we friends or should we make it a bigger deal?" mantalitly. Sometimes I am able to talk myself out of my feelings for guys, which I guess means they didn't hold the greatest appeal to me in the first place but him, I couldn't stop thinking about. There was some tension (not necissarilly bad but this odd comfort) whenever we were in an elevator together or passed in the library. By the way he works in the library... major points with a nerd like me. All my friends are quite astonished that I asked him out. Seeing as it is out of character. However, some were a wee bit furious. One just thinks he is the biggest ass because she is dating his best friend and he dosnt like her... which means nothing to me because this friend of mine is one I really dont get along with in the first place. So maybe he gets extra points for disliking some of the same people.. maybe. Its nice being interested in someone that is actually attainable again. For the past few years, I think I have been setting my sights on unattainable guys who I knew would never be mine. That way, I could never get close to being hurt. I am not looking to get hurt but I am ready, I think, to put my heart up to that chance. I think that is what spurred me on to his friends door to ask him out in the strange way that I did. I hope it works out. If not, I will move on to the next thing on my fate inspired list that I have no idea what is next. Odd.